aTtItUdE!!!!

Bpss Trip!!!

2006-05-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!
yeay!!!! finally!!!
STRESS OVER!!!!
Opps... forgot, still got the killer paper
^*drum roll*^^*tada*^-----O'LEVEL-----^*looks at god*^
Haha
anywayz, today was damn fun la...
I made so much plans for today,
then guessed what happend...?
it all got canceled so i ended up in a place
i never expected to be!!!
haha.... i make it sound horrible right???
hehe... sorry ah BPSS makels...
Okie la, i went to BPSS...
haha... Din have school today... haha
Well my day started...
I woke up the usual "school" time,
Met my "darling" Sara,
then we went to the opp busstop to wait for
Gayuthri and Buvanes
They took 10 years and guess why?
Gayu went all the way to 7 11 to buy Big gulp... Early morning...
acho... she damn cute la... then she made all of us laugh..
my tummy was aching by the time i reached their school...
She i tell u one hack of a crazy gal... this is her...She looks kind
silly in this pic... it was a candid shot...
hahahahahahaha!!!!!! funny right... i'll show a nicer pic of her later...
shh... dont tell her i put this up, she'll kill me!!!

Anywayz, after that, i came back home to download songs
to my Mp3 cause i burrowed Buvanes's cd...
Then i left home at 9 to meet those loosu's (joking)
and i got dragged into the school by Givitha...
ahe ahh i tell u, like she owns the whole school like that...
i was walking inside the school as if it was a haunted place
i looked damn scared and was literally holding my heart in my hands...
I met Priya kutti at the school gate...
That Kavi Bitch din even bother talking to me
Well, i obviously din give an F!!!
Then i was sittin gwith Maha, Givi and kavi gals...
Suddenly the other group, (Sara, Poorni,Gayu, Buvi,Sheila,Shamini and others)
The two groups just cant get along...
i was afraid that i was stuck in between...
Anywayz, i didnt wanna see that Bitch's face, so i Joined Group 2...
Priya sat on my lap... :)
hehe... loads f pps were there... i dont really like that school guys
they so damn irritating la...
i screwd two guys up cause they were disturbing Maha...
Anywayz, my wonderful Bro Hari came down...
i was so happy...
Priya and he are okie now...
hehe!!! *cross fingers*
we were in the canteen till 12
we were slacking and crapping the whole time!!!
i took pics with Priya Kutti!!!She looks drunk in this pic... haha
Then we got chased... wait wait.... correction,
i got chased out of the school by the blardie teachers
so irritating... they look at me as if i'm some alien like that
idiots!!! then we waithed for hari under the opp block...
it was damn funny i tell ya... here's some pics we took...
Thats Sheila and Sara... haha... nice right...
Shamini took this photo.. She's a good photographer!!!

Sara Darling was trying to immitate the "vaele Minneke..." song...
haha... so cute....
then after that, we all took bus to AMMK macs...
Priya and Hari didn't come... :(
Then we hang arnd there for awhile...
and took more pics... haha!!!! sorry ah..
This Sara la... he was taking lots of snaps...
so much so until my batt was flat by the end of the day...
hahaha!!!!

Thats me and Sheila....
i'm happy that finally i told her EVERYTHING!!!
phew.... relief... hope she understands *wink*

That's Poorni and Gayutri!!!
The rest all ran away when we taking photos...
nonsense... hehe... there were somemore pics...
but Sara deleted most of it cause it was crappy...
HAD FUN!!!! :) *big smile*

U know, this kinda little things,
takes my mind of u... :)
I had fun today...
Hope u did... in Potong Pasir...
Now.... i dont care...
so what if u dont call?
i dont give a shit...
i just realized how Naive i was....
So u were probably wondering why i never bothered talkin gto u just now..
well, u expected me to hang up my call just to meet u right...
thats what i USED to do...
not anynmore...
cause i realize, my frens mean much more than u... :)
i'm over it...
it strikes me now... :)
it's so over....
I'm no ragdoll!!!
i had fun when with u...
thanks...!!! *roll eyes*
I'M OVER YOU!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!! FREE!!!!!!

Note to every1:Please ppl... dont talk about him to me anymore... it's over!!! let me heal myself!!! u should be happy!!!! cause i'm BACK!!!!! :)

sadly

2006-05-02T00:32:00.000+08:00

I fell ashamed to confess that i'm still awake at this time of the night all because the thoughts about my past is haunting me.... again... It's torturing!!!:(

I still remember those times in Primary school....
Whenever my frens tell me about their BF or GF
i used to get so disgusted...
Infact, i used to scold them
for involving in a relationship at such a young age
cause i knew that these kinda relationship
is all bullshit and will never last for long...
So that day, i promised myself not to fall in love at a young age...
Maybe after 18... then only can...
But lets look at me NOW...
I've certainly changed...
I fell....
Twice i fell...

First was on my kness...
i got up and brushed it off...
it was painful at first,
but the wounds just healed...
but there's a big scar there
always reminding me of it...
the first time... wasn't so bad...

Then, i fell again,
This time on my face...
I tried to get up but i couldn't
Everyone tried to get me up,
but they all failed....
I'm still trying hard...
I was nearly there,
when the second one hit me again,
but this time, it didn't hurt
Maybe cause i chose to ignore it
But i'm scared it will sooner or later...
fear is still within me...
I'm scared
Scared to get up and walk again
cause i know, somewhere in me
i still never wanted the second one to let go
I'm not showing it though

I'm full of this failure crap right?
haha... thats my life....
Anywayz, My weekend was damn tiring la...
had to look after juniors and literally
run a show.... the seniors (me and my frens)
were running up and down all the time
makin gsure that everything went well...
hehe...
it was a good experience though...
Although there were some missunderstanding btw us...
After the show on Sunday,
went to Hari's (and Praba's) house...
Had dinner ther...
Had loads of fun...
Oh... I loved the Fish curry their mum made....
Yum yum...
okie... i shall post some pics... :)

That's my students... hehe... they all actually enjoy my company... very obedient children...

That's me and Durga's student.... so adorable!!! i love her eyes...

That's me and Malini akka... she has helped me alot for the past few days... i owe her one... :) a big thank u!!!

This of cause is me and mylovely cuzz Jess... thnks for being with me on sunday... well at least until the destination... hehe... love ya...

Gotta go... got exam tmw...
okie... bye!!!

break down

2006-04-28T15:51:00.000+08:00

I'm in the verge of breaking down!!!!
Jess i need u!!!!!!
; (
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate exams!!!!!!!
and guys, my parents told me
that if i don't get all A's
My Hp wil be confiscated!!!
I'm gonna flunk Physics and Maths!!!!
i'm gonna die!!!!

Message to some1 *roll eyes*= my life is a misery, so don't talk about the history!!

someone's blog!

2006-04-22T20:05:00.000+08:00

Until right now, i was doing some research for my mid-term art exams. Then suddenly i got bored and decided to read a few blogs! I was reading and it made me sad... i mean, i agree that i've changed alot... but it's cause of somepeople that i've changed myself. Dunno if it's for the better or for the worse. If nothing happened in between (the past) I would've been the same! Well it's all part and parcel of life as said by Mr. Bunny.... But i do miss those days. And u and i both know that even if we give anything up, it will not come back again... nothing can change this! It's fate i guess... U and i were never meant to be... I'm not blameing it totally on you though. Maybe u've changed, but i'm not too sure of it... WE had fun, that i can't lie... somethings can never be changed though? U still don't admit to all ur mistakes right? I hate that!!! Now.... i can't write no more... =(

*Ennaku 20 Unnakku 18=Yedho Yedho
Yedho yedho ondru ennkkullaenuzhaindu
aayul raeghai neela seigiradhey
kaadhal raeghai ondru idhayathai thirandhu
chellamaaga miratti selgiradhey
uyirae idhayam..... unakkae unakkae...

hmm...
memmories!!! :(

poem

2006-04-22T15:25:00.000+08:00

I wrote this poem in school
Wrote it during my accounts lesson,
had a free period!!!
I know i'm neither Jess nor Praba
but i tried to write....
Give me ur comments k... :)

Her screaming grew louder.
his heartbeats faster
she trembled with fear
as he got closer
she begged with tears
but he told her not to fear

But her fear took the better
and never has he seen her laughter
she need to be stronger
instead, just like a toddler
she curled up to a corner!

I never changed anything
typed it like how i wrote it
there's lots of errors i think...
oh what the hack... hehe...

starting exams on WED!!!
am really scared!!!
I have to do well...
Maths Go-in-tha la...!!!

amma

2006-04-20T17:27:00.000+08:00

Yeaterday, was a very tiring day...
Met Jess in NYP..
went to eat lunch with Vinoth anna
and Cindy ceci...
and oh yeah... rubenna..!!!
she didn't talk to me...
whatever!!! Don't give a damn....

After that,
we went to tang road temple to see Amma...
it was a big Q!!!!
but luckily Thangam mami
Q'ed for us, so we were the 100+
people there....
we had a talk about Amma
then after that, had Bajhan...
they were singing in some funny lang
and later on we reaized it was actually English.
Amma gave us Darshan...
she hugged us one by one and chanted something in our ears...
i felt so happy....
She's always smiling... i noticed...
so cute.... :)
i bought her bangle...
and she blessed it...
got back home late la!
it was worth it though
finally i got to meet her
I'm sooooo happy.... =)

*Devdas= "Sisila Ye Chaahat Ka"*

Mere Piya Ab Aaja Re Mere Piya,
Oh Mere Piya Ab Aaja Re Mere Piya

abt girls!

2006-04-16T20:16:00.000+08:00

I love this picture....
It's really adorable...

In one of my posts
i wrote about the typical guys!!!
now, i'm gonna write about typical girls...
hehe... enjoy.... it's very true u know.... trust me
i know!!!!this post is dedicated to all the guyz out there
who happen to be reading my blog....

When a GIRL is quiet, Millions of things are running in her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing, She is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions, She is wondering how long you will be around.
When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a few seconds, She is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you, She is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lays on your chest, She is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday, She wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL says I
love you,
She means it.
When a GIRL says "i miss you", No one in this world can miss you more than that.

How??? liked it? I'm sure some of the guys will never agree to this, but it's true... I'm a living proof of that... :(

thanks alot guys....

2006-04-15T20:12:00.000+08:00

first of all
i would like to thank
everyone who made a diff
in my fucking life!!!
eventhough none stayed long!
thanks to those peolpe!
learned lots from u guys
will miss u loads...
and will always love ya
those memmories will always be treasured by me :)

Is it cause of guilt that u avoided me?
changed ur blog add huh?
if ur reading this get this straight!!!
I DO'NT CARE ANYMORE!!!!
i'm sick and tired of this blardie shit!
everyone leaving as and when they want?
what, am i a ragdoll?
my life's a big play right?
just cause u were caught in a deep shit,
u think i'm the cause of it
its cause of u that i'm involved too....
that gal might not have been u,
but u know what?
i dont give a fuck!

Some people telling me i've changed,
HAHAHA!!!!!
well let it be
if thats a big reason to avoid me
just tell me if u dont like me
dont give me fucked up reason all
how come u can do whatever u want
but i cannot is it?
in what way is it fair u tell me...
its true i disagree to some things u do
i tell u, instead of just leaving
like what u do....
u know what, it still surprises me tat i still
love you!

Once again thanks u guys!!!
I'll never forget u guys
a big part played by each
in a small gals life!!! :)
Note to all: if u guys planning to leave me one by one, dont bother, just leave one short, cause i can't be hurt no more.
My life's full of shit aint it? :)

photos

2006-04-13T13:07:00.000+08:00

This are the pictures i took in panghuni....

sadly

2006-04-11T22:31:00.000+08:00

I'm really damn tired
but i had to blog
needed to get this
shit out of my head
or i'll have another
sleepless night
just like old times!!!

well, just when i was moving on
with my Fed up life,
i forgot to look back
just realised i have him to
ruin everything for me.
is it fate that made us neighbours?
as much as i hate talking or thinking about him
a part of me misses him!
i acted like i didnt care
when i heard about him and that gal
deep inside, was hurting so much
why?
i dunno....
maybe it's my conscience (sp error)
i need to get over it!
there's no hope in me
for him already
i keep trying and trying
to tell myself he's not worth it
but its not working
all i need is,
to shift house,
stop all contacts with his dad,
shift out of AMK,
avoid evry1 who knows him,
burn his picture down,
and
GET A LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, lets talk about
something practical.
i dont care if u guys dont care
about me writing about him
dont give me any negative
comments plz...
as it is already i'm very hurt :(
I'm just writing out everything that's in me
i hope u guys understand
cause if i talked about it to any1
of u, all u guys say is "no comments"
or "whatever *roll eyes*"
I'm back to my depression mode again
somebody please save me!!!!
as i try to save HER from him,
she's nice... =)
can't believe he's trying to ruin another gals life!!!
especially someon ei know!!!!
if i maintain this anger and see him again,
thats the end of him!!!!!
i'm that blardie pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that ASS HOLE!!!!!!!!

He ruined everything for me!!!! thanks alot da... =)

Panghuni was fun!!!

dance

2006-04-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

I'm falling in love
again....
so fast ah....
just only one...
then so fast another one ah...
oh my god thuls,
ur a bad girl.... =p

wonder what i'm talking about?
dancing la gundus.....
relax la ppl
well guys.
Had cca after school
it was damn fun!!!!
we learned Bhangra...
Yipee!!!!
then my instructor
was talkin got us all about
dancing...
and the diff types of dance!!!
i got so excited!!!
i can't wait to finish arengetram
after that, i can become a teacher....
cool huh?
then i can train my kids for major competitions!!!

but b4 that
my stemina needs to improve
or else cannot finish 8 dances
in approximately
1 1/2 hrs!!!!
Tirying sia!!!!

He always wanted
me to be a dancer =)!!! tmw is Panguni!
Jess is Carrying PalKudam
i wanna go see the Kavadi!!!
He is also taking kavadi
asked me to come...
My parents will kill me....
Saw his in the afternoon!
was nice,
surprisingly wasn't anjakx...
okie gtg ppl
bye tc....
hope u guys enjoy
the Panguni tmw... =)

Men

2006-04-08T22:40:00.000+08:00

this next post
is not to offend any guys out there
dont think i'm trying to talk bad about guys
i'm just so temptedto put it up....
hehe.... sorry guys...

Men Are Hard To Please
The problems with GUYS:
If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him;
If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.
If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him;
If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.
If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN;
If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.
If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;
If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.
If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u;
If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.(very true huh?)
If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him;
If u do!! he says u are CHEAP.
If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROUBLESOME;
If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him;
If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;
If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMAN.
If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;
If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;
If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!!
SO HARD TO PLEASE!!!!!

Guys will swear that it's not true.......
hehe... but gals, we know the truth ah...
haha... sorry guys,
just accept the truth okie???

2006-04-06T21:00:00.000+08:00

A few pictures of Taj Mahal.... i love it.... so pretty ah???

boring

2006-04-06T20:23:00.000+08:00

ahh..... my life is so boring...
i want something to happen....
anything at all
It's like everyday same things
same people
same boring look
yadayadayada....
argh...

It hurts
to see you walk past me
act as if nothing's ever happened
how do u manage to do that?
have u no feelings?
Moving on without u
isn't easy....
i'm still trying
in the hope that 1 day i will
I rarely see u though
too busy..... maybe...
I talk rude
i know
i'm doing that in purpose
cause i wanna hurt u too
i want u to feel how i felt
is that ever possible....
u never got hurt huh???
u ought to.... then u kow how "WE" feel
seriously..... get a taste of ur own medicine
Just Let ME Hate You.... :(

2006-04-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

Hope u guys like the pictures!!!!!

b'day

2006-04-02T21:45:00.000+08:00

it's my b'day today
i kept forgetting
but ppl like Jess kepp reminding me.
had a party with family last night.
it was okay...
it was held at Sembawang beach
i was sooo Sick though.
kept coughing a lot.
My Nephew from Kajang was soo cute,
he was so hyper,
had to play catching with him
he's only 3 but he can sing soo well
he sang the Don't cha song
and the Dass pahale (hindhi) song
sooo adorable....

cut my cake at about nearlly 11 p.m
i wasnt even born 15 years ago then...
anywayz...
the cake was okie
they liked it
Naveen JR blowed out my candle
hehe
dad only bought one candle,
he said that his chef said a gal's sge cannot be revealed
hehe...
there were lots of food yesterday
also had barbeque,
but b4 it could reach the dinner table,
the guys finished it ALL
i felt as if smthng was missing last night
that it was'nt complete,
something was disturbing me,
but i couldn't figure out what...

mum made me cry
wasn't even 15 min after 12 midnight
my dad was planning to get me a phone...
than mum tried to brainwash him
i was soo mad,
already i felt so weird
and on top of that.... haiz...
so i couldn't help it, so i strted crying
and got into my uncle's van...
i felt so rotten..
i stayed over at Jess's place
while she was on her laptop,
i was reflecting on the last 15 years of my life
and i realised something,
i'm actually kinda fortunate to be born in this family
like u see,
i get everything i want,
yet i need more
ther's just something missing in my life
i dont know what
i cant seem to figure it out...

my dad was'nt in a very good mood in the morning
he called and asked me to be home by 5...
Jess and me met Tangam Mamie in J8 at arnd 2...
we caught a movie,
Ice age 2...
it was really funny....
sooo cute..
after that, as we were headign towards the MRT station,
dad called again,
he satrted shouting at me
i got so sad...
i came back home straight
was really mood out
mum tried to cheer me up

we went out to a restraunt for dinner,
didn't eat much,
i realised i had to lose weight
i'm becoming fatter...
i look really ugly :(
seriously...
comparing myself from when i was 13...
it's scary to think how much of weight i've put on...
mum said i've been a good gal, so she asked dad to get me that phone
i'll get it by tmw... most probably...=)

well, look at me, i'm all grown up
i'm 15...
everybody keeps reminding me that...
it gets into my nerve sometimes...
duh i know....
it's not like they caught me suckin on my thumb right...
i realised another thing...
i,ve gone through more than alot for a fifteen year old...
i,ve learned many lessons in life
maybe it's for the better
at least now i know the Do's and Don'ts
and now i know who to trust and not to.
i wouldn't repeat my mistakes again.
well...
yet again
it's all part and parcel of being a teen i guess...
we all must get hurt one day or another.... =)

friendsip

2006-03-27T23:12:00.000+08:00

My dear fren, Rubenna,
recently wrote smthng bout love,
well, she said something about the Romeo and Juliet story
although its not true, the story actually touched many ppl's heart...
including mine
i watched it like 6 times already...
and each time i watch it, it never failed to make me shed my tears,
It shows a simple story about twolovers and how hard it is for them to unite
cause of all this caste or whatsoever....
I think my dad should watch that movie...
to people who do not believe in love,
or have not fallen in love b4,
it seems to be a bit stupid...
ok
why dont u tell me....
for eg... watch the movie b4 "fall in love with some 1"
and then watch it again after that...
there are lots of difference....
trust me....
ever heard of the saying,
love makes the world go round???
well as much as i hate to admit it,
it's very true...
can u imagine,
if everyone never loved anyone,
not necesarily a BGR....
but any kinda love,
thats it.... everyone's pot will be filled with human curry or soup....
hehe...

talking about friendship

Friends are very hard to trust
especially when u were backstabbed b4...
Some people, eventhough they have lots of frens,
more than enough to last a lifetime,
they still can't trust them with their life....
well..... if u come and tell me
that there are more than one fren that u trust with ur life...
i'll most probably burst out saying,
"sure or not?"
i mean seriously....
it took me 15 years to find that out
i think..... (note that... think only uh... not sure)
it's kinda weird
this pearson came along my life when i least expected it...
seriously...
and the best part is,
this person is not even a girl... :P
seriously....
sometimes i get the feeling that he understands me more than any of my gal frens....
he's always there when i need him...
most importantly,
i love him dearly...
he is the sewwtest guy i ever knew....
just when i feel like giving up on smthng or some1,
he brings me up again,
we laugh together, and even cry together....
hehe... if not for him, i won't be sitting down here using my comp
instead i'll be under my Blanket crying over stuff....
:)

sorry for not updating my blog for so long
i'm actually so not into this blog thing anymore...
sometimes,
i think that whats the use of writing bout ur personal life in the net for ppl whom u never heard of in ur life view UR personal stuff????
seriously!!!!
well, since i'm bored,
i'll update it la....
Gotta find a new blogskin though...
kinda sick og this one already....
P.S... my B'day coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cant wait for Sunday!!!!

holidaze.....

2006-03-10T21:36:00.000+08:00

Holidays are here.....
more like Holidaze....
hehe, nywayz
it's only a blardie week la!
knowing the pace of time this year,
it will be over with a blink of an eye
hmm....
tmw, me and Shiyama going Suntec city to get a cam for mum
it seens like they having promo or smthng...
god!!! whats with singapore and promotions nowadays...
called Jess just now
no one answered
wil love it if she could tag along

I'm getting so interested in Enginering
and i just found out that Physics is the most important subj
shit la.... I don't understand a nut my Physics teacher talks about
but i still can pass la... but not with an A grade
need to buck up = )

Coming to the topic about Birthdays.....
Blardie hell
i gonna be Bankrupt for the next two months
Lot's of Birthday's coming!!!!!!!!!
argh!!!!!!!!!!!
most of them are special peep'z
haiyo....
not forgetting my b'day oso coming soon...
hehe..... turning 15!!!!!!!!
oh my god!!!
i'm turning old!!!
argh!!!!

Moving on,
after school re-opens,
i've got camp
i'm really dreading it...
3 days la....
haiyo.... it's near the bukit timah hill
i just wanna get it over with
seriously!!!!!!!!
i'm really not the type who enjoys this kinda stuff...
anywayz, gtg....
mum's back
and to everyone...
HAPPY HOLIDAZE!!!!!!!

2006-03-08T17:45:00.000+08:00

This post is dedicated to Jess...
Walking down memmory lane with her...

Remmember those care free days.....
Strike three out again...
haha.... those were the days
laughing all the time
no worries
just us a nd a fun day to look forward to...
hmm....innocent and young
then suddenly,
she drifted away....
it was kinda sudden
but i knew that that day will come 1 day or another
it was sad, but we got over it,
and continued our journeys...
We started growing up
problems arrived
there might have been times when we never had a chance to seek help
but we always knew that when needed we'll be there
growing.....
it was a hard time for me....
discovering the person in me...
u helped....
without u i would have gone astray
sure, there were problems in between us
but we managed to solve it
u helped me through thick and thin
i feel bed though
the times when u really needed me, i was too young
much too young to understand u
i should have been there though
then nothing like this would have happened....

i'm really sorry....
i just wanna tell ya something
i really love ya loads
i will always be here for u
and please Jess, dont try to hide things from me
u know how much u mean to me....
and here we are now
all grown up....
haha.... spot the differences....
anywayz Jess

miss ya loads....
can't wait for holidays...
another month or two spent together...
love ya....
~2ulsi~
or your truly
~sotong~

guys....

2006-03-08T15:42:00.000+08:00

I HATE
GUYS!!!!!
I SWEAR!!!!
THEY SUCK
BIG TIME!!!!!!!

Dead scared

2006-03-07T14:58:00.000+08:00

I'm in school library right now
i've got oral exam to do in less than 1/2 hr time
i'm dead scared..... oooohhhh....
hopefully i do well
it's for mid-term exam...
argh....

School's fine...
POA teacher is killing me though
she cant stop smiling la....
even when teaching
so irritating!!!!
Geog is okok...
other than that i dunno what to say...
i need serioud help in maths
walau my maths teacher teaches us a new subject everyday
haiyo.... i gonna faint!!!

Nowadays, i fall asleep very early....
i dunno why also
i think it's 2 months of sleepless nights
accumalated into one.....
Don't get enough time to talk to Raja anymore
hope he understands....
and yeah....
i miss Jess also
we used to spend so much time together during holidays
now, we rarely meet....
dont wanna know what might happen when her poly starts...
hmm..... well just hoping life will get better.....
and Ruby, the latest entry of yours will surely touch many hearts....
cheers everyone.....
love u guys..... = )

hating life

2006-03-04T14:31:00.000+08:00

I'm really depressed right now
I cant believe it's happening
my worst nighmares coming true
1st, i was called a slut by a gal i dont even know
i was accused of bitching bout some1
but i was just talking about her to my fren
i was "thanked" (in a bad way)
i'm really scared of what might happen next...
My best friend said she's gonna move on
away from me and Raja...
Just when everything was going downhill for me,
the only people who could cheer me up also leaving me

I know what i did Yesterday doing the RI semi finals was'nt a gd thing,
but seriously i dont think it was Bitching bout her
why would i anyway?
she didnt do anything to me,
she just affected HER
not me.... all i was saying to Benna
was tt she was the 1 Jess was talking bout
wasn't tt the truth?
Is'nt it the fact?
Learn how to face the truth...
u know how i never bothered viewing her blog,
after a long time i did....
and i'm glad i idd
cause i found out i looked like a slut
i bitched arnd bout her...
wonder who gave her the idea?
i think its that B****
i knew i didn't like her 4rm the begining itself
smthng bout her was just urgh....
but i still dont get why she should do tt
and not helping at all, she can write bout it in her blog somemore
isn't it clear enough?
i just would like to wish Jess gd luck in tolerating her in NYP...

I wouldn't be surprised if she doesn't talk to me today
for her "she" is more important...
i'm quiet used to it though
life's just crashing down on me
oh... how i wish my school never agreed to take part in RI competition
i'm kinda glad that we actually never got into the finals
or else i gotta face the whole load of them again
i can't believe it
i'm making new enemies
not bad huh.....
it's something new...
i won't be surprised to be in the hate list soon...
i wish i had never bothere to help any1
see where helping some1 can lead u?

Life sucks big time
Maybe Priya was right...
I should'nt give a damn bout others
it's just me and myself from now on
~watch me stand on my own two feet!!!!~

Blog skin!!!

2006-03-01T19:44:00.000+08:00

Changed my blogskin
hope u guys like it
anywayz gotta go
will update later
tata...!!!

L.O.V.E

2006-02-26T02:29:00.000+08:00

I Love u guys soooooo
blardie much!!!!!!
thanks for being my friends!!!!
*muacks*

moody

2006-02-25T20:22:00.000+08:00

Was in no mood to update my blog
thats why after a while only i updating

Ever since dad left town
been going out alot....
opps...
i caught a movie yesterday with Jess, Ruby and Sindhi ceci
the movie was Pink Panther...
it was damn funny...
i tell ya....
so funny till the guy sititng directly opposite to us
was laughing
i thought he might actually drop dead laughing!
we ate in pasta mania after that....
then we took neo-print.......
Sindhi ceci went back so she's not in it...

Then today there was a carnival thingy
it was fun la....
i met Simon!!!!
ahh... he looks just the same....
i can't forget the days we used to spend together
in primary school, we use to play catching all
we even formed a "gang"
consisting of Pradeep, Ramanan, Lina,
Simon, Gahjen, Rajeshwari and me....
those days..... hmmm....
miss them all...
i lost contacts with some of them...
so sad....
after the carnival,
me Suzanna and Liza went out
i left early cause i wasnt feeling well...
was expecting Nithya to come
but she went temple....
it was kinda boring without her....
anywayz....
this are the neoprints....

i like this one

this one veri sweet

Ruby was also in this pic...
she didnt like her face in it
so i had to cut it off....

Tired..!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-23T18:36:00.000+08:00

I'm sooo blardie tired
had cca today
we were practicing soooooo blardie hard for RI competition
ahhhhhhhhh...... cant wait......
it's really scary
we are all soooo nervous
it's on next Friday
i heard it's very very hard
oh well... just hope we do well
*wish*

dad's not in town
so it's time to PARTY!!!!!
haha... no la
im not really a party person
ppl dont get the wrong impression :P
just gonna have lots of fun.....
full of plans for the next 2 days....
hmm... life w/o dad in town..

watched DEVDAS on Sunday
and after that i was really attracted to the movie
i mean really
the song are like stuck in my head
i've been humming it like all the time....
argh..... i love that movie man!!!!!!!

whata day....

2006-02-22T21:13:00.000+08:00

School was blardie fun today
stayed back after school for group studies
but in the end, we just fooled arnd
me, suzanna, Nithia, Lizah and Suhaili
we stayed back, watched the lunch time concert
it sucked to the max man
it was all chinese songs
racist!!!!!!

Anywayz
dad is going Indonesia tmw!!!!!!!!!!!
yay!!!!!!!!
life is gonna be peaceful for the next two days
there's a carnival thing in BP on SAT
organized by my school
i heard its gonna be full of fun
can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-21T22:10:00.000+08:00

i was like really bored,
so i decided to find pictures
and i came across this... really cute right?
i like it soooo much
its not that i got anything on kissing
but i think children kissing is really cute
so innocent and pure.....

no way

2006-02-21T18:25:00.000+08:00

There is no way i'm gonna talk to that B7 at all
after all that happened
i still pitied him and talk to him
must slap my face
my dad suspected me talking to him
so when he approached that B7
that blardie idiot agreed
if only he said no
my blardie irritating father also believed
at first he thought that ~T~ was my BF
god... can u believe it???
BF???? never man.... please
then after that
my blardie dad said he saw me and ~K~
together at the shop there
please okie!!!!!
he purposely said that
cause he suspected i might be talking to ~T~'s friend
blardie helll
i said nooooo way
can u imagine....
what if he found out about ~K~
the real story about him
i would have been sooooo dead
argh..........................
oh well
now dad took away all my priorities
:) i'm actualy kinda used to this
he gives me all this blardie rules
for e.g.
. come back home straight after school
. no using comp
. no going out with friends at all
. after cca no eating out
. no one can call my house phone
. i cannot call anyone

BLARDIE HELL LA!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm soooo freaking used to it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:(
argh.... tell me why again i hate my life?

i actually feel like swearing alot
but Raja wouldnt like it
so yeah........
I JUST HATE MY DAD

*i wish noone in this freaking world
will ever get a father like mine!!! and
no one should suffer like me!!!!!*

2006-02-20T17:19:00.000+08:00

I cannot believe what those 2 jerks
did to me and ruby's life
Ruby is so blardie hurt..... pavam la she
THOSE BLARDIE ASSHOLES WILL SUFFER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

changed

2006-02-19T20:05:00.000+08:00

hei guys....
thulasi here....
bro found out my blog add
so had to delete the old one
and so this is my new one....
argh.....
i hate life